ESPOSO Y PADRE

QUISIERA PODER CONGELAR EL TIEMPO, EL TIEMPO PASADO QUE NO VOLVERA. AQUI ESTOY VIVIENDO DIA TRAS DIA LA AUSENCIA TUYA, TE LLEVO EN MI ALMA AMADO ALVARO..QUISIERA TENERTE UNA VEZ MAS PARA ABRAZARTE FUERTEMENTE Y NO DEJARTE IR. EL TIEMPO PASA MUY RAPIDO, LOS NINOS CRECIENDO Y PARECIERA QUE FUE AYER QUE ESTUVISTE AQUI CON NOSOTROS. ELLOS TE EXTRANAN, TE NECESITAN Y SE PREGUNTAN PORQUE TE FUISTE? A TODO SE ACOSTUMBRA EL SER HUMANO, PERO TU AUSENCIA ES INCREIBLEMENTE DURA DE SOBRELLEVAR, TE AMAMOS ALVARO Y TE AMAREMOS SIEMPRE.

Como ha pasado el tiempo

Querido varo como te extrano veo tus fotos y siento que estas aqui y que nada a pasado. Sueno con voverte a ver, abrazar, con ver tu sonrisa, con escuchar tus carcajadas. En estos dia he tenido la oportunidad de ver videos en los cuales tu sales y como quisiera detener el tiempo y tenerte entre nosotros. A pesar de que David solamente te conoce por lo que yo les hablo de ti, el debes en cuando me pregunta por ti y me dice: mami el es tio varo y yo le digo si mi amor el es el papa de Eric y Nana..........y me rompe el alma el no poder compartir tantos momentos que podriamos vivir juntos.....pero en medio del dolor y la tristeza esta la Bendita Esperanza de cuando nos encontremos de nuevo no habra mas separacion..........te amo y siempre estas presente en mi corazon.
Estamos en los holidays y en mi arbol de navidad hay en el centro un plato con la letra A que te representa y te mantiene vivo.
Saludame a Pablo, Pedro y todo el apostolado...........I will always love you brother.

Awesome message

I wish I knew how to link this site here, I've tried but I don't know what I am doing wrong...anyways if you want to see this video copy and paste on your browser :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GpBuEuagZxE

And the Lord be our comfort...

Angel

As we go through one more month without you and we're also preparing for the holidays again, I can feel the sadness already sticking to my soul and my heart, but I am also trying to think about something positive that will help survive this...the only thing I can hold on right now is the fact that I know that you're in heaven, in a good place and furthermore that you are my angel that belongs here in our hearts and feeling that you are here in every inch of this house makes me feel calm. I can see you having a feast every day right next to The Lord and that comfort me, you have no pain no more, no sadness, no worries and I hope someday I can reach the awesome level you have achieve. We love you daddy and hubby!!

If only we knew you could see us...

So long my love, so long. Soon is going to be 15 months since you left this Earth, and we keep missing you like crazy. my heart aches for you every single day, but now I feel your presence around us even more than ever and that helps me go through. We'll never forget about you, and your memory is present every day in our lives, but only if you could see us honey...

OUR LOVE AND MEMORIES ARE ETERNAL

Te extrano

Mi amado hermano, como ha pasado el tiempo y todavia no puedo creer que ya no estas con nosotros.
Te extrano tanto, te tengo presente en todo momento, cierro mis ojos y veo tu hermosa sonrisa, recuerdo to caminar y todo tu ser.
Te extranamos mucho, pero se que aunque en esta vida muchos de tus suenos no se hicieron realidad se que has alcanzado el mas grande sueno y es estar en la precensia del Senor adorandole.
Te amo y siempre te extranare........JOhana

Cry out to Jesus cont.

My favorite line of that song:
He'll meet you wherever you are!

Cry out to Jesus

I've been listening to this song a lot lately...

To everyone who's lost someone they love
long before it was their time.
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye.

And to all of the people with burdens and pains
keepin' you back from your life.
You believe that there's nothing
and there is no one who can make it right.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.

For the marriage that's struggling just to hang on
They lost all of their faith in love.
and they've done all they can to make it right again
still it's not enough.

For the ones who can't break the addictions and chains
you try to give up but you come back again.
Just remember that you're not alone
in your shame and your suffering.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus.

When you're lonely and it feels like the whole world is falling on you
you just reach out, you just cry out to Jesus

Cry to Jesus.

To the widow who suffers from being alone,
wipin' the tears from her eyes.
For the children around the world without a home,
say a prayer tonight.

There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
that meets you wherever you are.
There is hope for the helpless, rest for the weary,
and love for the broken hearts.
There is grace and forgiveness, mercy and healing
that meets you wherever you are.

Cry out to Jesus. Cry out to Jesus.

Anywhere, I know it, beyond this horizon, as your smile beckons me onmy spirit will run from the tides to embrace you, all I ask of my is fortitude.no more of what is past and done, in every eternal awakening of the ancient promise my sadness will be no more, all I ask of me is fortitude.

YOUR BROTHER ALWAYS,

Anywhere, I know it, beyond this horizon, as your smile beckons me on
my spirit will run from the tides to embrace you, all I ask of my is fortitude.
no more of what is past and done, in every eternal awakening of the ancient
promise my sadness will be no more, all I ask of me is fortitude.

YOUR BROTHER ALWAYS,

Nine months...

No man has power over the wind to contain it; so no one has power over the day of his dead. Ecclesiastes 8:8

I know God took your life so soon for reasons that I don't understand, I know where you are is the most beautiful place to be, I know I can't have you back ever again, I know your are gone...forever, I know all this...but I miss you... my heart still aches for you, my whole life is so empty without you, all I have is a bunch of memories to hold on, hold on to your memories, my sweet Alvaro.

1 Thessalonians 4:16

For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. (NIV)

:)

Amor Eterno

Tú eres la tristeza de mis ojos,
Que lloran en silencio por tu amor.
Me miro en el espejo y veo en mi rostro
El tiempo que he sufrido por tu adios.
Obligo a que te olvide el pensamiento,
Pues siempre estoy pensando en el ayer.
Prefiero estar dormida que despierta
De tanto que me duele que no estes.

Como quisiera, ay, que tu vivieras,
Que tus ojitos jamás se hubieran cerrado nunca,
Y estar mirandolos.

Amor eterno, e inolvidable.
Tarde o temprano estaré contigo
Para seguir amandonos.

Yo he sufrido tanto por tu ausencia,
Desde ése día hasta hoy, no soy feliz.
Y aunque tengo tranquila mi consciencia,
Sé que pude haber yo hecho más por tí.

Oscura soledad estoy viviendo,
La misma soledad de tu sepulcro.
Tú eres el amor del cual yo tengo
El más triste recuerdo de Acapulco.

Como quisiera, ay, que tu vivieras,
Que tus ojitos jamás se hubieran
cerrado nunca, y estar mirandolos.

Amor eterno, e inolvidable.
Tarde o temprano estaré contigo
para seguir amandonos.

Dear Dorito

Its still soo hard to accept that you're gone! I wish I knew how to accept it! I miss you soo much! Its soo weird to think that you're gone to think that you're gone from this earth. But we know that you're with our Heavenly Father in a better place. Alvaro you were soo full of life and such an amazing brother to me. I have sooooo many wonderful memories together always laughing and cracking jokes on the family. You always wanted to be a better person! And you were to your dying day the best brother I could have ever asked for. I will try to accept your passing to the best of my ability and I know truly that only God and help me come to terms with all of this. You are forever in my heart - even if sometimes its too painful to think of you. I carry you and your memories in my heart ALWAYS!

Last night I was listening to Amor Eterno by Rosio Durcal. I love that song but its a tough song to listen to bc I'm living that pain she sings about with your death.

I really wish that you could be here now but I know that not the Lord's will.

You are forever in my heart! Te extraño como a nunca nadie he extrañado!

Hope of what is to come...

The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. But thanks be to God! He give us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. Therefore, my dear brothers, stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain. 1 Corinthians 15:56-58

Sorrow...

Today, while cleaning my basement, moving things around I found this song next to your guitar. How ironic is this, you loved Alter Bridge, I found the CD in your car...I never listened to it..until today, and you were learning how to play this song in the guitar...It hits me really hard, like a knife in my heart, but is like you unconsciously knew how I'll feel. I hate this from happening...I miss you so much, I don't know how to live without you!


"In Loving Memory"

Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

Ooo's

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

Hi

Hi Brother! I miss you so much! You are forever in my heart and thoughts! I dont like to think about the fact that you are gone! I look at your picture and my heart aches - to be honest I have to look away bc the pain is too much to bear. You will never be forgotten - NEVER! How could we forget you! I miss you so much!

I MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH!

Varo, today is six months that you felt us. Today is the day that you meet our heavelnly father....I miss you so much.......my heart is in so much pain and I want to see you and hug you again. I love you so much, it breaks my heart to read all that is in this blog.
On valentines I cried so much because I remember how romantic your were and how much you loved Gina and the kids.
We all are in pain, we all miss you so much.

Harold, Olguita and myself are going to visit our parents soon and is going and we are going to be incomplete because you are not going to be with us.......I don't know how are we going to be able to resit this, because our family is not complete without you. We are going to miss you so much!! My boys are allways sending you kisses and I look at your pictures and you look so alive that is almost impossible to think that you are not alive any more.

Te amo siempre
tu chancha murruca dedos chatos

I MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH!

Praise You in This Storm by Casting Crowns

I was sure by now

That you would have reach down

And wipe our tears away

Stepped in and save the day

But once again, I say "Amen"

And it's still raining

As the thunder rolls

I barely hear You whisper

through the rain

"I'm with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and praise 

the God the gives

And takes away

I'll will praise You in this storm

And I will lift my hands

for You are who You are

No matter where I am

Every tear I've cried

You hold in Your hand

You never left my side

And though my heart is torn

I'll praise you in this storm

I remember when

I stumbled in the wind

You herd my cry

You raise me up again

My strength is almost gone

How can I carry on 

If I can't find You

As the thunder roll

I barely hear the whisper 

through the rain

"I am with you"

and as Your mercy falls

I raise my hands and

praise the God that gives

and takes away

I'll praise You in this storm

And I will lift my hands

For You are who You are

No matter where I am

Every tear I've cried

You hold in your hand

You never left my side

and though my heart is torn

I will praise You in this storm

I lift my eyes into the hills

Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord

The maker of Heaven and Earth

I lift my eyes into the hills

Where does my help come from?

My help comes from the Lord

The maker of Heaven and Earth

I'll praise You in this storm

And I will lift  my hands

For You are Who you are

No matter where I am

Every tear I've cried

You hold in your hand

You never left my side

And though my heart is thorn

I will praise You in this storm

And though my heart is torn

I'll praise You in this storm

You praised Him in the storm

There so much to say about you Alvaro because you were an amazing human being, but if I have to highlight the most defining quality in your life it will be the love you HAVE for our Lord Jesus.   You were faithful to Him on this Earth and you always tried to do what He asked you to do.  Your greater desire was to be Holly and gospel music helped you leave all your obstacles behind.  You did it, your heart BELONG completely to God, that's way you are today enjoying His presence.  You loved Casting Crown so much and one of your favorite songs was "Praise You in This Storm" and today when I heard the song in the radio I broke into tears because I recalled how much this song helped you during tough times.  I am here,  trying to make sense  of  all this now and I am  having a hard time, but I know God is with me and  this song reminded me that I have to live like you did if  I want to go where you are,  in Our Father's Home. 

Heavenly Father! I praise you in this, the greatest storm of my life...

If you could only be here

Dear Husband,

When thinking about heaven I imagine this awesome place where everything is perfect and where everything you ever wanted or needed is available to you.  I am thinking...maybe you have access to a celestial technology and are able to see this blog.  That make me think that I can communicate with you, maybe you do read this blog, maybe you really know how we are doing, I hope so, I really do. I wanted to tell you that your son had his first ever soccer game, it was really hard to be there without you, I wished I could see your face when his team won 12-1...if you could only be there. Everyday is a struggle, I know you'll wanted me to go on with my life, but I can't.  I miss you, I am hurting deeply, I am sorry if I'm letting you down, but this is too hard.  I promise I'm going to try harder and I promise I'll never forget about you.  I love you.

I miss you

 I can't think about anything else today but how much I miss you...Its pain what I feel in my heart deep, deep pain.  How can I live without you, I don't know, everyday I struggle thinking in all the things that we used to do together, a day like today...we should be here at home enjoying our kids together, we should be enjoying the snow, the fireplace.  I miss you!!! I need you!!! I want you here!!! I want you back, so bad, I know all the people the love you would trade anything to bring you back, so do I.  Acceptance...not yet, I don't know where or how, I guess someday I will have no other choice but to let you go, but for now, I am here grieving and missing you everyday even more.  I love you chancho.

in silence

i miss you in silence, i hurt over your death in silence, i think about you in silence, i love you in silence. i dont know how else to do it but to do it in silence. to vocalize it is too much for me right now - guess im just not there yet. perhaps one day i'll be able to say how deep all this has hurt me.

its still hard to believe that you are gone from this earth. i wish it wasnt true but it is and i must come to terms with it.

despite my pain and sorrow i remember you always - you are forever in my heart vibrant as ever!

loving you always!

chavalo feo!!

Daddy is always in my heart

That is what your son told me tonight before falling sleep . He said that you even go to school with him and I told him yes, you are with us. We know you are watching over us, we know how much you love and care about us, even from Heaven.  We think about you every day, every hour, every minute and we wonder how are you doing.  Our faith tell us that you are in an awesome place, with no pain or tribulations, you are happy now at Jesus' side.  The only hope we have left is to know that some day we are going to be together, I know we'll see you again!!  We love you and miss you with all our heart.  Good night my love...

Te extrano

Varito, i miss you so much!!
I can't still believe that you are gone forever...I still think that I will see you again in this earth.....it is a new year and life is not the same without you.....we had our first holidays without you and they were hard to experience......we miss you so much....
We all think about you all the time and which that you were here to share our life's together....we were supposed to grow all old together. But today I cry for your premature departure, but I rejoice in the hope that I will see you again in the presence of our heavenly Father, who is faithful and true.
Be sure that your memory will live in us forever.
your sister that will always love you!!!!

Seasons change, time flies, people move on...new year, new plans, new dreams, the world never stops, but I did. I am so scare of believing that is true, that you are no coming back for real. Tears stream down my face when I think about it, when something inside of me keeps telling me you are gone forever, please!!! God help me understand this...so hard... so unreal.  Our lives have change forever with your departure, not in my wildest dreams  I could ever imagine about you living this earth so soon, I miss you baby...your kids miss you too.