Our first Christmas without you

This is our first Christmas without you, there was a void, a surreal emptiness beyond  comprehension.  I am here writing you this because I miss you so bad.  My heart is aching for me and the kids, they don't understand yet the magnitude of your loss.

Tomorrow you won't be here, to help your son with his new toys, to put the batteries in some of them, to tech how to build or how to ride or just to enjoy his surprised face.  We all are grieving inside, our hearts are broken in pieces wondering why, why this year, why so young, why you, why us, why?...why? I hope you are celebrating today Jesus Birthday  right beside Him and the Apostles, that is the ultimate comfort, knowing that you are in Heaven looking after us, because you were not physically but spiritually here, I felt your presence among us and that comfort me.  I love you, your kids love you, Merry Christmas my love.

Hoy hace cuatro meses que te nos fuiste de nuestro lado.  Es Navidad y no te tenemos cerca para abrazarte.  El mundo pareciera seguir girando, nada se detiene, la musica, el comercio, el consumismo, todo sigue igual...

Algunas veces me siento aislada de todo este bullicio,  mi alma se quedo frizada en el tiempo, en aquel dia de Agosto que cambio nuestras vidas para siempre.  Es como una pelicula que pasa por la mente una y otra vez, como si no tuviera final.  La eternidad es el final, el dia que podamos reunirnos contigo querido Alvaro, el dia que veamos tu linda cara sonreir otra vez, ese dia podremos decir que esta pesadilla llego a su final.

Te amamos querido esposo, padre, hermano, hijo y amigo, y aunque el mundo siga girando, nosotros  seguiremos amando y extranando la gran persona que fuiste en esta tierra y la  marca que dejaste en nuestros corazones nunca sera borrada.  We love you Varo...

Wondering

Wondering why you left so quickly? and why it was so sudden?
It's hard to go through this without you! But I know that you want us to go on and that we can only do it by faith in God (honestly I don't really know how to do that).

Although I wish that I could wake up from this, I know I have to accept it and know that it is God's will and that you are resting in his eternal peace. Truth is that I miss you a lot, we all do! You'll always be in our hearts and that no one can take from us.

God help us to go on, we need You! Bring healing to our hearts.

I miss you

Varo, I miss you so much..........I want to hear your voice one more time........
you are always in my mind and heart, you will always be a part of our lives and we will keep your memory alive in us.......my heart breaks in pieces when I want to see you and I confront the reality that you are not alive in this earth,,,, but I rejoice when I think that you are only sleeping and in the presence of our heavenly Father and you are worshiping him. Calling him Santo, Santo, Santo ................

I have the assurance that I will see you again and that is balsamo a mi ser.....

Te amo y extrano mucho!!
Tu murruca dedos chatos........